“Nobody can do you better than you” this is the first ever lesson that I learned form this college experience (yeah, and right on the first day too).
As most of you might know, I’m an introvert. I don’t like hanging out with the big gangs, party all night, and you know, the stuffs the cool, and active groups does. But, I still wanted to do that (because I was so determined(more like desperate) to “fit in”), and guess what, it sucked. If anything it made me tired.
I realized that hanging out with a bunch of people is not the only way to have fun. I like to eat alone, I like solitude. I like silence. And it’s pointless to give up on my ‘likes’ in the pursuit of “fun” . Don’t get me wrong, I’m not completely against socializing, but I think it’s obviously a waste of time and energy to hang around with the wrong group every single day . I have to feel comfortable and that must be the top priority. And if I can find myself an actual friend whom I’m comfortable with, I’d be glad too. What else could I ask for when I found myself a friend.
But honestly, I wasn’t this clear and strong. It was a totally overwhelming experience. Everybody is hanging out together. Everybody is getting along so easily. Everybody is in some sorta group. Everybody this and everybody that. These thoughts made me feel really bad, but now I’m over it.
And it’s all thanks to the amazing support and encouragement provided by this blogging community. You guys really helped me out. Your words helped me from the overwhelming stress and anxiety. I really feel honored to be a part of such a wonderful community. I also want to thank love, geeky girl for all the wonderful motivational and informative posts on college life. They really helped me out.
Not everybody gets a friend right on the first day. These things take time. My roommates are friendly enough, so maybe, just maybe we’ll become a group someday too. Who knows? (btw there are 3 other students sharing the room with me and that’s a small group for ya).
It’s because of you guys that now I know that I’m already doing a great job. I was just being hard on myself because I was comparing myself to others. But the truth is, I’m not them. I’m just me. I’m doing me the best way I can, so there is no point in being worried about not being able to be like the others. Nobody can do me better than me, and I can’t do anybody better than them.
P.S. I’m so grateful for you guys and you too Mom and Dad 😄. I love you guys❤️.